LYRICS

hold my hand
it’s time

that morning I had tried
to hang myself

i had taken the silk cord
of my mother’s yellow bathrobe

then I hunted around for a place
to attach the rope

i sat on the edge of my mother’s bed
and tried pulling the cord tight

but each time I would get the cord so tight
I could feel a rushing in my ears
and a flush of blood in my face

my hands would weaken
and let go
and I would be all right again

wherever I sat
I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar
stewing in my own sour air

to the person in the bell jar
the world itself is the bad dream

(taken from Sylvia Plath’s ‘the bell jar’)
violets for a maiden dead
pansies let my flowers be
on the living grave i bear
scatter them without a tear

let no friend however dear
waste one hope one fear for me

(taken from Shelley’s ‘remembrance’)
i hear your flesh burning
i smell your flesh burning

i hear your hair burning
i smell your hair burning

i hear you scream
i hear you scream

my heart is burning
my soul is burning

burning
you burn
steal the hearts of men
the hearts of every man
and crush them all
it’s always the same
day after day
no change
no change

over and over again
the same spleen embraces our hearts
as hours go by
as hours go by
as hours go by

sigh, wail…

i don’t want to live again
the world has failed

life is not a gift, you know
it’s just a curse

let the nature turn to dust
the children die

even if you offered them to live again
they would say no

i loved you
i loved you
you’ll never know
how I loved you

and now you’re dead
and now you’re dead
dead and buried
deep into the ground
of my heart
this heart of dust
this heart of stone

i loved you
oh how I loved you

oh I hear your call
you want to leave this life for real

you say: ”don’t be sad
it doesn’t matter anyway
you know my life is a failure
thirty years were long enough
oh lament, lament!
there is no escape“

here comes the old age
here comes the last path

where are you now, you with whom I used to laugh?
where are you, you that I loved?

i escaped many times to find another life
in vain

and now time has passed
we grew older
we waited so long for something to happen
and nothing new happened
we’ve just watched the years go by
as if we had never been

where are you?
all gone now…
as if we had never been